Honestly, I’m just tired.

I don’t really know what I want today.

I don’t really know what I am moving toward.

I wash dishes, load laundry into the machine,

and boil tea.

I think about all of the reasons I am here

And all of the reasons I didn’t want to be.

I am thankful

Though I feel lost today.

And I wonder if someone

Else would be better

In my place.

I hate the way

I always count myself out.

Always lay myself

On the bottom

So others may climb

To the top.

Can I stop?

Can I see my worth

That it is more than

Broken vases and failure?

Am I really more

Than that?

Today I feel

Like I may not be.

But Alice

Wasn’t the right Alice

at first either.